- June 23rd, 2010
I'm having trouble sorting things out.
When I was a kid, I used to be pretty confident that I knew everything. If someone wanted to know something about some 'advanced' (to the 10 year old mind) concept, I was quick to fill in the blanks with a mix of imagination and common sense.
It wasn't uncommon for me to actually get it right. I wish I could provide an example.
Fast forward ahead until nowish.
I'm obsessed with feminism. I never felt the sting of sexism, but the mere thought of it riles me up something fierce. I'm terrified of succumbing to White Knight Syndrome too (there's your example, I figured that the meddling of a privileged person in an underprivileged persons self-reclamation would probably be called this, especially given intersectionality - I was right, sort of, it's usually used in the context of relationships ... okay I fail), but, I need to know everything. What's wrong, what's right, what needs to be done(gulp), how can I be a positive force without trampling the needs and rights of others?
I find it overwhelming.
I read feminist and atheist blogs (lots of overlap), hell, vlogs too, and I'm constantly learning new and sometimes surprising things. I try to question my own preconceptions more now. And it's not easy. It's a lot easier to say you've got the answer and then go have a sandwich and give it no more thought.
Right now I'm at a point where some form of consequentialism is satisfying my need for an answer, even if only a placeholder.
I'm never going to finish my thesis.